I need to make myself accountable. No more excuses.

I have hid behind the excuse that I had a baby for too long. It has been over a year. I gained too much weight in my pregnancy, and with the problems Cameron has had and that they all affect sleep, I haven't lost but 20 lbs from when I had him, and on a bad day, I can fluctuate 5 lbs easily. UGH. I am so frustrated. I had worked SO HARD to loose 200 lbs- and now over the course of my pregnancy I gained 70 and have not lost much. That is a LOT!

I started drinking soda. This is definitely my downfall. Soda and Pasta. I justify the soda because of the caffeine- Running on 3-5 chopped hours off inconsistent sleep is just not something anyone should do for an extended period of time.

I also used to exercise 5-6 days a week for 40+ minutes a day. Not doing any now. I definitely don't lead a sedentary lifestyle by any means, but chasing 3 dogs and toddler all day doesn't count. My body is too used to it. {How can it make me so tired then!?}

I really don't eat much and I don't eat crap- but I drink Coke and eat pasta. I really need to cut both. It seemed so easy last time, and now I simply keep making excuses. I am not happy with myself ever. I am sure that is affecting the wife and mother I am.

The other justification I keep making is that I am still 120-130 lbs smaller than my biggest. That is still a whole person! But it isn't good enough, not anymore.

Here was my biggest-

Here is my smallest-

 Here I am now.

 So. Gameplan. I can't get off the coke cold turkey this time. There is no way. This non sleep is killing me.
- Drink 24 oz of water for every soda. I started doing that last week and I am drinking dramatically less    coke.
- Switch back to quinoa, brown rice, and whole wheat pasta.
- Exercise! I have some plans to incorporate Cam in on my workouts.
- Wear my fitbit pedometer and track my calories.

This should be a fail safe plan as long as I stick to it!!! Wish me luck! No more excuses!

New hair...

I am all about easy- and since I rocked short hair before I found out I was pregnant- I decided to go way short again. Dan doesn't like it, but I love it- it is easy, and it always gets done. Makes me feel a tad more pretty that my hair is always done instead of battling a frizz ball that is too short for a pony tail. I love going to aveda salons- they always throw in a nice neck and scalp massage, and by the time I was done with my haircut, it was the best 2 hours away and alone I have spent in a long time.

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In other news, Cameron drove my dear friend Ashley's car. Ok, he didn't leave the driveway, but he thought he was hot stuff!